Friday was a little difficult as we handed off our precious chocolate lab to the rents... We just don't feel right taking Copper to Alaska when she has pretty severe hip arthritis since being hit by a log truck 3 years ago. Thursday night, I brought her in and scrubbed her down really good so she would be all clean. She was extremely cooperative; as I bathed her, I talked to her and explained what was happening. When I told her we were going to a far away home, she hung her head as if she was sad :( I tried really hard not to cry... But then, when I told her that she was going to play with MaMaw and Papaw, she picked her head up and wagged her tail, excited. She LOVES to play fetch with her Papaw!!!
All day yesterday, we worked really hard at the big estate sale; John has been selling stuff for about 3 weeks, but the BIG sale day was yesterday!!! Lots of people, shopping, and dealing... It was kinda fun!! At the end of the sale, though, we still had the dining room table, bistro table, 1 queen bed, and my piano. Several people had mentioned they knew somebody that might want the piano; we had "sorta" offers on some of the other pieces, but WE STILL HAD the stuff!! LOL Earlier this afternoon, a friend of a friend came by with her grandmother and daughter. The daughter wants to learn and the grandmother plays... she sat down at that piano and boy, could she make it sing... LOVED listening to her play. Thrilled me to know someone would love it like I did... but sad because I have not been piano-less in nearly 40 years, except just a couple of early married years...
As we have cleaned out and begun packing some things up already, we have reminisced and talked of many memories and concerns; one thing that has crossed our minds and hearts is that we may be causing our children to feel "un-rooted" so to speak. Will moving to another state, halfway around the world create feelings in us or our kids that make us feel like we or they don't have a real "home" anymore??? Not sure there are any right answers to these thoughts or feelings; the thoughts and feelings are real and make me feel inadequate sometimes. John and I have talked about fears and hopes all through this decision; we feel we are doing the right thing and that God is leading us down this path. Never in a million years did I ever believe I would be doing all this.... NEVER.... but God has led us to people and places that inspire; we feel it is the right thing to do and that His blessing is upon us.
Last August, when Trip called and told his Daddy that they were going back to Kodiak, my heart sank! I was devastated. For 3 days, I could hardly talk. I was moody. I clammed up. The girls at work kept asking what was wrong; finally, I told them that 4 of my 6 grands were gonna be in Alaska, and that I likely wouldn't see any of them for 3-6 years -- depending on their military orders. I felt so lost.... 2 of my precious babies in Vegas - such a long trip, and now all the others soooo far away.... over 20 hours to fly up there. My brain knows that for years, many families have dealt with these separations, but I am NOT accustomed to them! We always lived near and visited extended family OFTEN!!!!!! Living this far from ALL my babies was just killing me... I mentioned, jokingly, to John that I just might look for a job up there.... and thus began a journey... our epic adventures....
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